Ever since I ran the Nike San Francisco Half-Marathon with Team in Training (in Oct. of 2009) I have debated long and hard about this hobby.
Am I a runner? if it’s sporadic and slow?
Do I even like running? then where is the supposed high?
Do I want to run a full marathon some day? why? just because other people do?
Do I even like competing in real races? or am I comfortable with just my quiet 4 mile loop?
Can I say “ok, I did it.” and leave that 13.1 miles as a big item I can cross off my bucket list?
and soooo…after a long break from running (where my thyroid got medicated and my adrenal glands healed and exhaustion stopped being the day-to-day reality of my life!) came back to running a bit. and kind of liked it enough to start having these conversations ad nauseum, with my closest friends and patient husband. What do they think? What advice do they give?
That I should do what makes me happy. and not kill myself with the effort.
but see? That’s my trouble. Running is painful and hard and I’m not a natural athlete and have short little legs and I’m a busy homeschooling Mama with a high schooler, a junior higher, an elementary student and I REALLY don’t have ANY extra time for it.
there is this:
I kind of love it.
I love the curves in our rural road and being outside in the crisp morning.
I love being by myself and away from my kids for a bit during daily runs.
I love the crowded anticipation of all the people on race day, before the gun goes off.
I love the challenge. and oh how I love passing people!
I love beating my previous time, even by just a few seconds.
I even love sweating.
I guess? I kind of love running!
however, for an “excuse” to get out there more frequently, I need both a deadline and real incentive. Life just gets too crowded and I push myself to the bottom of the to-do list, everytime, so….
Yesterday, John gave me an early Christmas present and let me register for the Eugene Half-Marathon on May 1st!!
I am going to run it and I am going to beat my San Francisco time.
If you are local, please know I welcome training buddies for Sat long runs and/or the race!
If you are friends/family far away, please know we’d love you to come stay with us that weekend to cheer me on (or join me!)